Feel like giiving in.................

Yet another appointment today as well as 4 contacts each week,Monday and Wednesday for Jade but she hasn't been turning up to see her daughter. Lottie's dad Ben,give him his due he sees Lottie every Tuesday and Thursday failed being a foster carer and the report isn't very nice.Its actually knocked my confidence of being a mum and Nan I saw a solicitor today over a Special guardianship order but im wondering is it worth it?I do love Lottie more than life itself but my confidence has been knocked ,Know im being silly b I dot have anyone to talk to.x

Jules you are amazing Mum and Nan, can't believe they failed you as a foster carer. Can't believe they wrote a bad report about you aswell, jobs worths that is all they are. Please don't let it get you down, sounds like you're the only one who cares about Lottie and she is very lucky to have you. God knows where she'd be or who she'd be with if you hadn't stepped up.
I am here to talk anytime, don't feel like you're on your own. Big massive hugs 

Thanks Lizzie,I know your right.Its been a hard few months and im feeling a lot better now.Lottie is so special and were lucky to have her.The fostering is so hard and they bring up all-kinds from your past.Were not all perfect and I know ive made mistakes but my kids mean the world to me. Im not a bad mum but the report made me feel like that. I've been to see a solicitor and im going for a special guardianship order.Things are looking abit more positive now.x

hugs hun no idea how it works but hope you get special guardianship, you're a fab mum/nan dont let them tell you otherwise xx

Thanks Linds,how are you?I cant believe youve had another baby,good on you.You and Len look so happy.xx

I hope you get your special guardianship then Jules. Here for you if you need me xx

Hey thiught id said hello last wk but can c my post im dawn some i no some i dont mum to harry 14 eeek and mads 11 not sure wtf the yrs av gone hope ur all well xxxx

Thanks Lizzie,I know Dawny.I cant believe my Jess will be 9 in Aug.xx